Banjo week 4

Week 4 was much better than last week.  Jonas wasn't there and instead we had a sub named Matt. We learned how to play "Groundhog" 2 finger style.  Much to my surprise, this style feels more natural. Matt is the kind of teacher that likes to hear everyone play individually and of course I blanked out a bit. I've realized that my way of coping in those type of situations is to turn it into some funny disastrous dorky moment. I know that at some point I was flushed red...my stage fright is bad. Thank goodness my dream of banjo playing only goes as far as performances in my living room with my dog or my girls as an audience. I'm starting to think about the possibility of signing up for the next level class, though I think I am doing it more for the discipline it forces me to have. There are a plethora of things I wish I could do, get done, yet there is always something in the way. It's sad because many of the things I want to do get put on standby until further notice and most of them never happen. So I wonder if it's  lack of discipline to follow through or if  I'm  really caught up in so many other things that keep me from doing said things? Going to banjo class gives me a sense of using my brain for other things versus following my typical routine. Furthermore, it pushes me to hold myself accountable (ie. Last week I spent the entire week miserable for not having practiced). I have been good with my scheduled daily practice and I am beginning to feel connected to the instrument...if I choose to follow through with more classes I might look into buying my very own banjo. The last thing I'd like to talk about is my frustration with this. I am the kind of person who wants and enjoys  instant gratification and this is one of those things where I can't have that with. Only through perserverance will I be able to play songs almost flawlessly. So in the mean time I have to keep reminding myself that Rome wasn't built in a day and my skills at banjoing will only improve the more I keep at it. 

-A.